今天大概下午四点多我在客厅看着电视听见有人开门，原来是爸回来了。
心里就觉得很奇怪为什么他会这么早回来，然后看到爸走路拐下拐下的就大概猜到他发生意外。
原来爸爸在工作时候骑摩多时给车撞到，再看清楚点又发现他右眼黑青了。
看见爸那幅样子真的觉得他很可怜，让我觉得他更老了。
过后他就上楼换衣又看到他的右脚包扎了，还有许多伤痕。
看到都觉得很心疼。。。
希望他伤口快痊愈！

I just want to shout so badly right now!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I almost finish written a blog that i'm suppose to post and then don't know what technical error then now it's gone!!!

It's gone!!!! What the F**K!!!
I'm so pissed right now!

Speechless...better go and sleep!!!

为什么男生在追求女生之前和之后总是有差的?

当男生追到后就开始忽略女生的感觉,开始装傻不知道你生气就随性把事情凋淡.

之前总是对你百般的呵护给出一大堆的承诺逗你开心.之后他们就忘了自己讲过的东西.

之前女生说什么男生总是尽力去办,之后就会开始抱怨开始觉得女生烦.

现实一定要这样吗?一定要这么残酷吗?

有想过女生喜欢的是之前吗?

-完-

So it's a weekend without XXX and Saturday class. Saturday i got a morning call from Kim for lunch and then another call from Kenneth also for lunch. I was like "that's great coz I've plan instead of staying at home thinking nonsense".

So Kenneth picked me up, after that I got a message said the original lunch has canceled so me and Kenneth went lunch and decided to go for a movie and we headed to Time Square. Obviously it's gonna be a long queue because it's Saturday and not to mention that we reached there at 3pm however Kenneth went to the reservation lane and cheated the tickets AS USUAL and we bought the movie "Public Enemies" at Pavillion at 6.10pm together with Rafi joining us.

While waiting Rafi to come me and Kenneth walked from Time Square-Sg Wang-Lot 10-Pavillion- back and forward untill my legs was like going to break then we decide to look for Thai massage but what we found is all foot massage and it's is very dissapointed because both of us felt so tired of walking already. 

Finally it came the movie time and we met Rafi, the movie was a bit bored but undeniable Johhy Depp in freaking cool in the movie and received 2 short msg from XXX. So around 8 something we dropped Rafi home before me and Kenneth went for dinner. Reach home at 10.30pm exhausted and talked on the phone with a friend before went to sleep. He called during midnight for about 20seconds and me end up unsatisfactory and a bit upset. 

Sunday, i watched Grey's Anatomy almost whole day and don't really feel like wanna communicate with anyone and I just did a little bit of my homework and also finished the whole season so that I can focus more on assignments on the following days. By the way, not even one message or phone call from XXX today and I'm ok? I GOT TO BE OK!

有时候人越是长大了越是怕热闹,

最近不懂为什么,总是拿不定主意.

有时候想要出去但却从未主动约朋友出街.

感觉上好像在听天由命那样,没人约就只待在家.

可是朋友难得约出街时又不由自主的拒绝了...

今天就静静的待在家褒<学警出击>吧...

现在我要先去睡一会儿咯~

 

今天是星期五了,想到明天不用上课使我很想跟朋友出去可是原本去逛街的计划已被朋友取消了真的有点失望.

放学后就去金河找他吃午餐(过了一个小时的快乐时光).

一吃完就搭车回家褒连续剧,上上网找资料.

晚上也只不过是跟爸妈吃饭,去了家附近的家具店点看看家具.

回到家又上网找找资料...

感觉到有点无聊...很想早点睡.

希望明天醒来心情会好点...

Today is still another ordinary day doin the ordinary things thinking the ordinary stuffs. Suddenly I started to think that I'm kinda weird...

What do I want actually? Seem like all these years I've been dreaming and never wake up. Things is passing by me so quickly sometime and I dont even have time to see clearly what is that and just like that -- it gone away.

Seriously I dont even know what my mind is thinking now...and i dont know what write in my blog now *slap me*. Aiks~

I want to go for a vacation!!! Please finish this internship quickly then i can go Redang~

Last Friday was one of my best friend's birthday and seriously there are many people came included my primary friends, high school frens, his collegue and a few outsiders. I guess there are more than 30 people. You dun believe? Check this out!

So..He actually book the whole cafe only for ourself and everyone is busy chit chatting until we hardly hear the person talk beside us coz it's so noisy man~

And we have a signing ceremony that Kenneth suggested. Which mean everyone mz put on the lip stick and kiss on the huge birthday card and sign it.. Here it goes...

As above Kenneth are asking the guys to put on the lip stick but many of them are not being cooperative..Sigh...

So, the party end up around 10.30 and Kenneth end up being like this...

I think he is looking who did this to him, some of them bring the spray here somemore.. LOL

P/S : Happy Birthday dude!

It's almost 1 month for my internship and i havent blog anything about it. Anyway, so far everything is quite ok working in Grey WorldWide. Everyone is very nice thr and i can see that this is a very good company for me to learn. Everyday when i wake up the only thing i wish for is to finish work on time HAHA! Most of the time we have to work extra hours and i feel so tiring everyday and it's like i never have enough sleep since i start working. I realized that when we work it really left very little time for ourselves and i miss my school time sooo much. I guess after i finish the internship i will definitely appreciate my school time more since it only left roughly a year of college life.

Other than that, finally i found someone that i really like and I feel blessed. Finally i can really get over the passed and move on and he moved on too, yeah! This guy is a very funny guy and i LOVE guy with sense of humour! After all these years at least now this relationship remind me how's it felt like being loved again. Honestly, i've fogotten this kind of feeling for a while and thank to my fren by recommend "U" to me.

Lastly, there's also a bad new which I have to resit for 3 subjects this sem. For god sake i must work EXTRA EXTRA hard for this time since i have lesser time because of the internship. Haiz...but what to do right? Just suck it up lo!!!

" 16.02.09 "

If we were together this date will be our fifth anniversary...

I knew you were going to ask me out on this day but i can't, i just can't. Please forgive me for being so cruel to you. You called me on this date and say you want me back so badly until my tears keep falling down. We have already broke up for four month but you are still standing by my side patiently waiting me to go back to you, I never know you could love me this much...I know you are trying your best for me after the break up no matter how. Even though you know i'm seeing someone or dating someone but you still giving ur best for me...I know you well enough, all these efforts really shows your sincerity and i can see you really trying to change for me.

Those messages that you sent to me really touched,I just couldn't read it word by word on thay day u sent to me. My heart just couldn't bear it anymore, how could you be so silly and putting so much effort on me where there is so little hopes or maybe none? All these effort making me even more burdoned with the feeling of guilt. I really hope you understand I cant be with you for now, the guilt just too much for me to handle.

I really hope you stay strong without me, take good care of yourself...

Yesteday was Valentine day, wondering how you guys celebrate it. For me, i think it's kinda special because this year is a year tht i celebrate without a boyfrien after 5 Valentine day. So on the day time me and Ellise acc Kim to Chow Kit and Petaling Street to buy some stocks for her sis and so i get to eat my favourite curry puff at petaling street and we oso went to eat the so call famous Grill Portugal fish..I really need to say the result disappointed me!

 

U noe ar? I never like Curry puff one but this one is my favourite curry puff~ Inside got egg + chicken+potato

 

 

 

 

 

This 2 fellow is discussing the most delicious food they ever tasted.

Then I reached home around 6p.m and took 1 hour nap and went out again with my best fren-Kenneth for dinner at Midvalley-Chillies since both of us are single thn we promise each other to be each other part time partner... ngek ngek ngek~ Who knew end up two of his collegues said wanna join us...Thn we had "table for four" LOL...Luckily that his friends were quite friendly or else i'm gonna rot thr...The traffic was so jammed when we depart and somemore we need to queue up at chilies for half an hour and the food came quite slow..So I'm totally fully utilize my Valentine's Day and i thk i had a fine Valentine!

                          Specially thanks to tahhhh dahhhh~ Kenneth Loh Kin Lik                                                                                                                                      

30.01.09

前几天我们搞了个烧烤派对...大多数的人都有来,还有几个稀客来客串真的很开心.

今年我们既然有玩烟花,大家晚得象小孩子般的,我已经很多年没玩了看见时都觉得非常兴奋!

以下是其中一些我们所拍的照片...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It's been almost 1 month after the second break up. Things was not going so well before tht but anyway u moved on,which is what i expected from u, i knew u would found another girl in short time, but i guess this is the only way to make u not so mad at me huh? Anyway i really hope u found someone who is really suitable for u. I always feel that i wanna be a close friend of u to help or listen to u whenever u hv problems but deep down in my heart i knew it would not happend in this way because all u want is a girlfriend to care u.

Anyway,back to myself... i'm totally single now for sure...Dun really feel lk wanna get into another relationship so soon. Although sometimes i still feel lonely but i guess without a bf wont die..LOL..Things got little messed up from the 2nd relationship but i did learnt alot and it make my mind even clearer now.

By the way, i'm stil in touch wit my first-ex. I admit that i still hv a little feelings on him but if he wants me he need to try harder and harder. I'm so afraid of goin back to the same stage again...Besides, i met a new friend recently and he's kinda interesting. We've been talking on phone this few days and he's kinda funny jz wanna c what tis guy got! HAHA~

Back to my studies,haiz...really worry about my exam la...i dun wan my result ruin my internship lor...Oh god! plz bless me, forgive me for not going church. Still got 1 more paper to go next week, I ll break my leg for it!!!

Nonetheless, sister is coming back from London end of this year..cant wait to c her and when she's back, that time we will be living in a new house lor...YEAH! Guess few more months i can move to the new house lo, cant wait to decorate my new room and raise a dog!

So..that's it for today~ Happy "NIU" Year everyone!!!

最近我又开始想起他了,

想起他的时候就会哭,

就好象一个隐藏的伤口,

没碰到的时候就没事,

碰到的时候就很痛,

到底我是真的放下他了吗?

我又开始乱了...

我真的很不开心可是我不知道可以向谁说...

心情真的很沉重...

我已不知道可以向谁诉苦了...

This is the latest movie i have watch recently and i really like it..

I would really like to recommend this movie to all the gals out there because this movie is super duper romantic

I will rate this movie 89% as a romance movie...

And one of the soundtrack in tis movie call "Flightless Bird" is damn nice but i really dunno wat's the lyrics about...

Anyone who understand, plz explain to me ya...

 

今天上了整天的数学觉得很压力,

有种冲动想打给你但我知道这是我自己找的理由,

结果就打消了这个念头...

放学时下雨...

我一边看着雨,一边在想此刻你有没有担心我怎样回家吗?

很想知道你在做什么...

你好吗?

跟你一起的时间虽短可是这短短的时间却留下不少的回忆,

你不要我的关心因为你怕我会再给你假的希望,

先在的我就是在跟时间玩着游戏,

我希望我可以在这段时间我可以找到一个平衡点,知道自己想要的...

很想每天跟你保持联络然而这却带给你伤害...

我知道我是自私...但是我真的很想知道我对你来说有多重要?

还是你只是纯碎要找个女朋友?

不知不觉地...你好象在我生活圈子占了不少的部分让我觉得突然又失去了寄托,

我不想再和朋友再讨论这话题因为这让我觉得自己像个白痴...

有时会白痴到想找个借口来发个信息给你...

多希望你不会逼我,多希望一切变得简单些...

多希望现在收到你的信息...

P/S 希望你考试顺利...加油!

 

我终于拿出了我的勇气跟你分开...一段差不多五年的感情...

虽然不舍但为了将来我必须做出这一步,是我自私和贪心...

我不知道我对你的感觉是爱还是一种习惯...有时和你一起我会想起他...

可能真的须要很久的时间我才找到答案,或许要投入不同的感情我才晓得...

如果我继续和你一起这一些疑问都不能接开...

可能有一天我发觉最爱的还是你而你身边有了另一个她,我想是注定吧~

可是也因为我做了这一步,我才发觉你是那么爱我的...

朋友说我说我应该暂时单身...我也决得对...这样对大家都公平点吧...

你...一定要照顾自己知道吗?

如过我们成功过这一步...没有什么是过不了的...

我一定要坚强!